Letter from LostnSpac

Dear Editor,

You're tricky. I know you like to keep your readers guessing, but you've got me completely baffled. I thought I had an idea where my life was going, but as of late, I'm not so sure. Let's go further into this thought, shall we?

First off, I'm just not sure if college is my thing. I know, I know. Everyone needs to go to college to get a degree to get a good job and be well off. I've heard that all my life. But honestly, college just isn't for some people. I really don't feel like hearing about how Augustus ruled over Rome or how to closely read the Bible. I'm simply not interested in those. I've thought about dropping out every now and then, but I can't seem to convince myself that it's a good idea. The thought has just passed through my mind a few times, you know? I also thought about finding a trade school to attend. That's the kind of learning I like. I want to learn about things that legitimately interest me. I want to learn how to DO things. I don't want to know random facts that, quite honestly, I will never need again after the final exam. There's just no point in my learning this trivial things. Either way, I can't bring myself to drop out of college. I have it pretty good right now.

Also, I've been having a serious identity crisis lately in a few ways. One way is simply my future career. I love photography, and for the past six or seven months, I've been telling others that I plan to be a professional photographer. I'm even saving up for equipment. However, I occasionally have the thought: "Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life?" And I know, a lot of people have this question at my age. But it bugs me. I'm usually very organized and I like to have a plan ahead of time. I would just like to be certain that I want this enough to do it for my entire life. My interests seem to sway. It's been that way my entire life. I've stepped in and out of interests and phases. I've never had a constant interest for my entire life. It just hasn't worked that way. Until I figure it out, I'm completely in the dark.

Another way my identity has been in peril is in regards to who I am as a person. Ever since last Summer, I've been so confident with myself and who I have been. And due to this confidence, I have been happier, made new friends, and also made some enemies. But recently I have been questioning that aspect of my life. I've never been one for labels, but I feel like one is pretty much necessary for me to have a family, and more importantly, a future. I've been told my friends that it's okay not to know exactly what I am. And I understand that, but I went through years of questioning, not knowing, and then hiding. I don't want to go back to that. It's not a time in my life that I want to return to. I've been trying to move on from this and focus on more important things, like school functions, my job in the summer, academics, etc. But if I'm not comfortable with myself and don't know who I am, then how am I supposed to know anything else? One must know thyself before knowing others. That's probably not a legitimate quote, but I feel like something along those lines needed to be said. Truth of the matter is, I don't know myself, and I can't accomplish anything without knowledge.

So, Editor, if your plan has been to leave your readers in the dark for chapters and chapters at a time, you've succeeded. But I implore you, please add some foreshadowing to your story. Not just some, actually. Heavily foreshadow the climax of your story. Because frankly, I'm tired of guessing games.

Sincerely,

LostnSpac